Doubting...


What if....

What if I can't do it. What if I can't be the Mommy my children know when the twins come. What if I can't be there at every moment.

Do I have what it takes for two wee ones? Do I have the physical and emotional strength to keep pressing forward? What will be left of me to give to them? Can I truly do this??


"I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you..." John 14:18


Why should I doubt now, when I have been carried through much trial throughout my life.

Nothing has changed. Jesus Christ remains my Savior, my Healer, my Friend. My experiences have changed, but they always will. With all of the inconsistencies in life, there is one constant, and in Him I will trust.

To be honest with you, I don't know how it will all work out. When and how the twins will be born, when they'll come home with me, how we'll adjust to two newborns nursing, up at night and such. How my older girls will adjust, how their needs will be met, when I'll get to bond with them...

But I know that we will fall in love with these little babies that have caused our whole world to spin these past months--they will melt our hearts and remind us why life is better enjoyed living for what is right in front of you.

This new found conviction to be faith-filled goes to you, my two little loves.